Then the clerks started to give instructions, which was the same shit as yesterday, however there were people here, like her, who were new. So instead of actually paying attention, she watched the movie. Loudly. Upon asking her to turn it down a little, she turned it up. I dealt with this for a little over an hour. Then I had enough and started playing Inkubus Sukkubus off my laptop. I am sorry if you are sitting in room 400 in the Superior Court House, and do not like Gothic/Pagan/Rock. I don’t listen to it much, but lyrics clearly made her feel as uncomfortable as I did. Childish? Yes! Warranted? Absolutely! Besides the blabbermouth next to me was on the phone sitting at a cubicle the whole time. I mean there’s limited cubicles and they are the only places that acutally have outlets for laptops. Why would you sit there and yak on the phone?

Anyway Mom was dismissed from one panel, we are just waiting for the fate of the rest of the day. Her boss had the nerve to call ME and check up on her. Wow! Company loyalty much?

I feel sorry Mom has to go back to work. Her job is so stressful, and the past few days being away from the place (friday we had a faucet leak) she’s been at peace. Not in a trite way, I mean she actually has colour to her cheeks and she looks youthful. That place is sucking the life out of her.

This makes me feel horrible I still haven’t found a job. I haven’t applied. I haven’t found much that comes close to anything I imagine myself doing until surfing today. There were a few temporary positions that are lab researchers that would be great for me now since I am also studying (procrastinating) ferverntly for the GRE’s. It would add the “almighty experience” to my resume.

*Side Note: Where the hell are you suppose to have 2-4 years experience for an ENTRY level job? Yes! I actually seen that. Shoot me now if this is what I am up against. I guess I can only apply for NON-entry level jobs lol. As in NO ENTRY. I apologize for the bad humor, it’s hard to not be bitter, but I’m trying.

Perky..Sunshine…Roses…Eh, shit. Let’s just keep this shit real.

It’s not her fault. Her boss actually said to her, and I quote, ” You should go to a psychiatrist and get a note that your mentally incompetent to serve as I did.” Wow! Dignity much? Anyways her boss thinks she can get out of two full days (believe me I wish she could!) There really aren’t many friggin outlets here for the computer and the battery will be shot soon.)

Anyway seeing first hand how the “legal” system works I can understand why this country has been going down the crapper. First off, they called people out for like two cases, although they claimed they started the day off with 23 and they have three more cases to go. All these people have been sitting here for about two hours with nothing to do. No cases, no “promised” coffee and “tea”, nada. (They actually had the nerve to say budget cuts, get used to it, when asked about the promised beverages.) (Um, wtf?) Did I mention I hate Jersey City? (Not so random, were sitting in the Superior Court House in Jersey City). The cops are hostile, the clerks, are hostile, and quite frankly between my emancipation trial and mom’s divorce the judges are hostile. But that’s another point. The point is everyone , including the clerks are not doing a thing! If they got their shit together this day could have been cut in half. And then everyone could go and buy a store bought cupcake.

Seriously. If this is mostly civil suits and such, and they can’t even agree on small things, how the hell does Washington run? Super Slow mode? Does anyone do their jobs anymore? (Boy I can’t wait to get one! And friggin DO it!)

And I’m sorry, on the stupid blue summons they announced coffee and tea, maybe if they actually let people have their caffeine fixes they wouldn’t be so crabby.  :)

And don’t get me started on all the “American citizens” who are claiming “no speaka english” at the window to get out of their civic duty. It’s like, ”Gente, que tenía que hablar Inglés en nuestro examen para convertirse en un citzen derecho? ¿Dónde su enlgish ahora?”

Yes I am an American, Polish decent, and yes I think that was pretty damn good for not being completely fluent in Spanish, a language I have no obligation to learn…except if I want a job in Hudson County. lol

Yay for jury duty…

So, slacker I am no more. (I’m also sick of people asking me questions like “what do you want to do?” get paid obviously, “where do you want to work?” somewhere in my field where I can get paid, “what are you doing now?” sitting on my ass eating bonbons…obviously looking for a friggin job! People can be so backhanded in their concern.

Just yesterday my best friend, my actual best friend, who since getting a boyfriend hasn’t called me since like June, asked what do you want to do? You spent three years with me at school? Come on!

So welcome to my quarter-life crisis. Enjoy your stay. At the ripe old age of 24 I feel helpless, hopeless, frustrated, isolated, and agitated. The ironic thing is that part of the isolation is myself. I really want more friends. I don’t have many (err at all?) quality friendships. I don’t know how this happens, because I have given so much toward my friendships and it’s like we are all moving in different directions so fast. This saddens and worries me. Then sometimes, even when you are invited to something, you just don’t feel like going. I know, it’s bad, and at this point since the invitations like when I was in college are not being thrown out to me on facebook weekly, I should jump at everyone i get. But I’m 24, and have realized that frat parties and sorority events are not my idea of a good time anymore. I had pledged a sorority very late in my college career (I transferred late out of one school, and that made me stay in school for 6 effin years, another serious blow to my ego…but anyways…) that year was good. I thought I made some good friendships, particularly with my little sister (who I did alotfor), only to find out that sisterhood connection only works her advantage. nd when I didn’t graduate when I was supposed I was sorta shunned. In the fall when I had to come back, it was such a hassle, that the sorority had to vote, as to whether or not I could even come back, since it was such a “unique” situation. Oh please, there were several girls that were on many year plans, but for me it was a problem. I had already paid my semester dues before this “unique problem” was presented. Then meetings were tough commuting, with my school being about 45 minutes away on a train. So yea staying for a 930 meeting and trying to make a 10:20 train to get in at 11 to get up at 5:30 the next morning was a hassle. Then when I did attend meetings I learned I couldn’t vote and such. Which in the past girls have not paid dues and nor showed up to shit, and they did. Also my little sis offered for me to sleep over her place and give me rides…untill i actually wanted to take her up on her offer.

I had a real major wake up call though. When I went to a party last summer (via the train) got trashed and when I had to go back to the train station, I walked there myself (drunk) and went home on the train. I really could have been injured. My former greek organization at my former school would always have looked out for the drunk one. I’ve walked people home, but when I needed it, I did it myself. Particular theme in my life.

Enough of college bullshit. Job hunting here I come! 401 k, health insurance, and maybe dental! Sign me up please!

Hopefully it will all work out well…NO ROOT CANAL!